The Labyrinth of Life

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Biggest Pet Peeve (Today)

This makes me so mad. When I mention I am going to go to lunch somewhere to a coworker and she/he asks if I would mind picking up something for them also. The coworker also says "I'll pay you when you get back." "Sure, no problem" I say to coworker. Now this was when I should have said "Oh, I'm sorry I only have enough cash for my lunch. " I drive in my car using my gasoline to pick up the food, bring it back to the little (bankrupt) princess, telling her as I set her precious lunch on her desk "that was $6.95." She responds with a cheerful " okay".

Do you think I saw one dime of that money by the end of the day?? No I did not. Now I am in the awkward position of having to mention it to her tomorrow in some gentle, subtle way so I don't seem like a money grubbing miser or I have to just forget about it and try to learn a valuable lesson. The lesson being - Never trust a bankrupt princess.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Intimacy

I had a revelation over the Christmas weekend when the husband and I were home alone together for three days recovering from whatever nasty bug has taken over our bodies. It became crystal clear to me the true meaning of intimacy (you thought I was going to say the true meaning of Christmas, didn't you).

When previously thinking of the meaning of intimacy in my life, I have always connected it with two people physically connected, not necessarily bumping fuzzies, but touching one another in some way. It dawned on me as we were coughing, sneezing, shaking with chills, fighting our fevers, that there was nothing more intimate than being perfectly comfortable and uninhibited sharing space with each other when we were at our most absolute worst. I felt more in love with the man than if we had spent the whole weekend making mad, passionate love.

Perhaps we'll do that next weekend!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

SCARY THOUGHT
I realize "tis the season for good thoughts and peace on earth" blah, blah, blah but I'm sick with the flu and I'm not feeling very full of good will. I am feeling very full of phlegm though.

I realize considering how quickly I was struck down with this current bug that has invaded my frail body, how the Bird Flu could kill millions of us in a matter of a few short weeks, should it start spreading amongst humans. Since it's symptoms are allegedly much more severe than the common variety of influenza, if it starts spreading, we are all doomed. That is all.

Merry Christmas.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

I Dream About Dead People
So often I dream about dead people, basically relatives because those are really the only significant dead people I have known. I dream about dead grandparents, great aunts , old employers and most disturbing (or comforting depending on the dream) my father. I am not a superstitious person, nor do I believe in the life hereafter but after one of these very real dreams I often ponder whether it is a way that dead people are connecting with me. The irrational part of my brain tells me that people never really die, they just float around visiting people in the dark recesses of their minds in their REM dreamworld. I recently had a dream about one of my Grandmothers who has been dead for 20+ years and she was as vivid as can be in my mind, even after I woke up. I remember very distinct details about her apartment from the dream as well as the clothes she was wearing and how she sounded. It's very fascinating to me to consider that the human mind can store such exacting details (because I really don't believe that the dead are visiting us in our sleep...or do they)?

More on dreams in a future blog.